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Instant Flames
Flicker of Eternity
Hey. Wha’ da’ ya’ know? Wha’ da’ ya’ know? What do you know? Who knew life was so confusing? Somethin’ different ‘round every bend. Who knew that life would be so hard? Thousands of things to manage: friends, girls, a house, and guitars. And everybody expects everything to be perfectly aligned, nothing wrong at all. At all! A life is something to be cherished. Not thrown away like a broken toy. Not wasted on achieving perfection in everything you try. There are too many experiences, good and bad. Without these life is nothing. Without it, the soul is broken, snapped in two. Our flicker of eternity is meant to be used, not wasted. We must remember the good times and learn from the tragedies. Life goes by too quickly to want to die. Freedom is the separation of body and soul, a realization of the power we hold and what we must obtain. A knowledge that we are most important to us. We know nothing for sure, but we might as well make the good times last.
Shining Night
This night was made for us to be alone and lost. Lost in the depths of our love. Our love. The stars are bright; the moon is flying, looming low on the horizon, to stay out of our eyes. But on this shining night, the brightest star is you. Your smile is radiant; your hair is glowing and the glaring stare of passion and hope in your eyes is unmatched by even the brightest flame. We sit here tonight hoping the clock will stop. The meadow behind your house: the romantic getaway. And we’re so madly in love that sittin’ here is all we can do we can do. Midnight passes; the bells are tolling and finally, after an eternity, my eyes meet yours. My head is racing, and my heart is on fire. Hours later we find ourselves awake. We turn on the radio to hear the forecast but we already know that tonight will shine bright.
Self Esteem of A Different Brand
No one sees the world through my eyes. Nobody sees the same things I do. Nothing at all is right for me. Yet everyone thinks they know me. Yet everybody judges who I am. Based on nothin’ at all. There’s that saying “Don’t judge a book by its cover.” But it seems that everyone is like: “What the hell, people ain’t books!” Sometimes I feel like the only the only outsider. Then I turn on the CD player and know that thought isn’t true at all! I wander endlessly to see if any understands me, any body at all. They say all I do is wrong. But how do they know it’s not them? If it isn’t, I’m an alien. An alien. Someone everyone confides in nobody turns down.
Is rightfully respected but wrongly used. A tool of the community. A tool of the community. Some of us are extra-popular. Others in the shadows. Some in-between. Dumb. Smart. Short. Tall. It makes no difference. We know who we are, how it’s gonna be. An’ what we’re here for. All these “normal” people are missin’ out on a great experience. No one should carry this burden, but it has gotta be done.
Thinkin’ ‘Bout You
I was thinking about you, in another time. Thinkin’ ‘bout you, in another life, in another time, another place. Thinkin’ ‘bout you. I don’t really know what I felt then. But somehow I know; that it’s just like I feel, how I feel ‘bout you now. Back then, and now, I hoped you’d feel the same about me. As I did. As I did. As I did. Now I know, but wish I didn’t, that it will never be the way I wanted it to be. The stupid restrictions of this dumb-ass society ripped out my heart and kept us apart. Maybe, just maybe some other time the rules won’t be the same. Then my undying love won’t be put to shame. We were meant to be. It’s just that no one can see? Why can’t they see? In another time I may see you again. Then, will it be better? Will it work out better? We’ll never know until we see each other again. I’ll never know ‘till I talk to you again.
Do We Dare
How does it look? How is it goin’? How’s life without me? I know that you’re gone, but I hope you’re missin’ me. Sure enough, you called me last night, but I was too busy picking up tears. There is no hope unless we try. Try to keep this flame alive. Do I dare, do we dare to open the box again? Do we dare to start this thing anew? Or will we be separate forever? Or will we be separate forever? Or will we be separate forever? How did this disaster ever get started? We opened that damn box once before. We had started, but the flow of evil. The flow of evil ended it all. I loved you. You loved me. But now it seems like we never met, never met. The risks weren’t worth it. How’d we ever think that they were? Now I know that we must try. What is there left to lose? Nothin’ else can go wrong. I can only drop dead. But even that would be better than this. Everything is wrong. Nothing is right. But I have a feeling that that may change. Only fate can decide. Only fate can decide. Only fate can decide. Only fate can decide. Now the deed is done. The Apocalypse has not come. The only thing that has changed is hope. The only thing that has changed is hope.
Alone
You want the truth, only the truth. But you can’t give it to me ‘till its too late. So why should I even try? If it’s the truth you want,
I’ll give it to you. But only, only if you do the same, the same for me. My love was unfathomable. It kept me from realizing that I never. Never had a chance. It’s my fault for even trying ‘cause I knew it would never work. Now I sit alone, crying and banging on the wall. But I can’t really blame myself for trying to fulfill my foolish dreams. I was so deeply in love crafted by perfect denial that I didn’t even begin to piece the clues. The clues together ‘till it was already over. So I’m sorry for all this trouble. Now we starve for love. You move on, not stayin’ near, but I still linger here. Alone I shall remain Long nights shall pass; months will go by the mass. Before the spark ignites again.
Just Realize
Open your perfect eyes to my shining light. We got it all we gotta do is let go. We can be a set of four eyes on the same path
A mass of entangled arms. Perfectly sculpted bodies, worthy of a statue, a statue I will make to last forever and never break apart.
I tell it the way it is, and if you would just realize that I’m right your life could shine, and so would mine. Finally, I know I’ve made a good decision, and the track is straight from here on. Paved flat to see the future; padded just enough to nurture, but not envelope as a whole. Baby I can see you got a soul. Your not one of those materialistic girls. The ones who think relationships are somethin’ else to twirl. They don’t realize a lie can break a heart. But you do, I hope you do. You’ve flipped my life, I’m startin’ out anew. I’ll do anything to please you, as long as you respect me too!
Meaningless Apologies
I got nothing to say, but the words will still flow if it’s OK, okay with you. There’s nothing in my life new, it’s still got its ups and downs. But today’s the day I tell instead, instead of keeping it locked up inside. I’ve finally decided that it isn’t worth it.
‘Cause I’m tired of making all these meaningless apologies. Never again will I beg on my knees so that you can think that you’re right. To think you know what I was thinkin’ when I was talking, talking to you. I'm innocent of all your crimes. I was willing to pay the bail with dimes. But now that my visions cleared, I’m more likely to bail out a sunken rowboat with a spoon and paddle across the sea. I gotta do it while you’re out so that your gleaming eyes and perfect lies can’t convince me I’m better off with you. So let this song be another useless apology for leavin’ you alone. I’ll end it now, must end it now. Now to end it. I’ll end it now, must end it now. Gonna end it now…
This Cursed Game
Today I got a new game to play. The manufacturers called it “Suicidal Mission”. But I think a better name is “Life”. I’ll be playin’ this game for years ‘n years. It’s the hardest, most addictive thing I’ve ever tried. Right now it goes: Pills ain’t workin’? Well an axe in the head is a real blow to the mind. It might even give you a new way of life. I’m tired of playin’, but I can’t stop until I beat it. But I’ve heard that it’s hard to keep your place, place once you’ve won. I know there is a silver lining to everything. But I tore mine off and sold um’ as a ring. As expected, the market dropped dead. I’m getting fed up. I’m getting ready to lose. But now it seems like the game won’t even let me get a bruise. Never mind dying. At least now I’m trying. But the grim reaper ain’t buying my bait. The girls in my pond are biting, but I always reel it in too late. The current pulls me in instead of out. No use fighting ‘cause I guess its just fate. I need to shout. Now I’ll shake it off and start again.
Lasting Memories
Faded works of art make up my broken heart. The only thing I live for is wishing I had more. More lasting memories, more good times that won't end, more great girls, more caring friends, and fewer tears. The sun appears but I've been up all night.
Convincing myself that I'm all right. Sitting in a corner, head on my legs, as if it weighed a ton; thinking about what I've done.
I've done nothing, nothing 'till I've got… I'm drawin' near insanity. But I'm not crazy yet cause of the girls I haven't met. And the chance for a kiss: an opportunity I won't miss. In a couple years, I'll have…to reflect on. And put it in the back of my mind for yet another time.
Marooned In Mourning
I know this guy; he's only half alive. And that’s his bad side. People still wanna burn his hide despite all his pain and trouble. And if it wasn't for the rebels, we'd be gone, long gone. At least my hearts still on, but I'm the only one willin' to share this ton. I've been marooned in mourning. Nobody else is caring, but me. You say you all see. You all say you know. But it doesn’t matter, it doesn’t matter enough to make you show… Think of all he's done for you__ou. In the bad times he's seen you through. The moments to cherish, he's right next to you. And that guy is me.
Falling Too Fast
I’m falling too fast baby, but I think you’ll just say maybe. It’s too far; I can’t connect I just hope when I come, you’ll recollect. Oh, what to- what to do? I guess I’m coming for you! When I first saw your pretty face my heart began to race. And I fell so fast the rain started rising until at last, surprisingly, I found myself in the clouds. Someone had rid me of these shrouds; these heavy cloaks that had brought me down; and replaced them with this cheery gown. Now I can fly. With you out there, I’ll never wanna die… You burst out of the crowds; you sing your radiant song. For now I can only long for meeting you, my deity. You’re far to pretty to ever waste, to let others even taste… And I’m falling down once more. When I hit ground, you’ll be there, I’m sure ‘cause you’re my cure. You’ll fall with me, together: hearts lighter than a feather. We’ll stay up here forever because I’m in love with you. With you… With you… With you… With you… With you… With you… With you…
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