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I decieded to move my answers to their own page.

Though I dislike writing about myself, I'll do it this once because you guys have answered them for me and I feel that it's time for you all to know my feelings on NIN. These answers are long, but I decided to spill my guts instead of keeping it short and sweet

1. From whom/what did you first start listening to NIN and how do you think your state of mind played into that?

The who of my NIN experience was a boy whose sister I knew, I never knew him but every time I glanced through my year book and saw NIN as his favorite, I was mesmerized, perhaps it was partially due to a small crush on this boy but NIN stirred me more than anything, never knowing who they were until several years later the name gave me a feeling it was something I really should get into. In other words the yearbook was and always will be a reminder of what my heart knew.

2. What are your other musical interests?

I've always had highly sensitive ears, eyes; senses basically, loud noises bother the hell out of me, but music entices me it's so fluid when done correctly so I'll give any sound a chance. Mostly I go for music that inspires me (sounds that contort themselves into unreal places, shapes and beings). I like classical, the extremes of it: either soft and watery or operatic and massive. I love any music in which the guitar is allowed to pulsate, throb, echo and thrive. Singers ho seem to carry their heart in their voice also grab my attention. But if I must pick specific music as a favorite, NIN is front and center, APC's sound haunts me to no end (which is always appealing to me), Tori Amos, David Bowie, Nirvana, Pink Floyd, Tool some Metallica, Tom Waits, Erykah Badu, The Cure, Goo Goo Dolls (along my musical journey their music also helped usher some good changes into my life) and the list goes on. I play flute, sing and when I was younger played some piano (not well but I did it).

3. What NIN lyric do you think best describes you or your feelings (if any)

Lyrics speak to me like poetry or a well constructed story, they express feelings and emotions I have trouble voicing. At any given time every NIN song hits close to home. But usually the ones that I'd cite are Eraser:
need you/dream you/find you/taste you/fuck you/use you/break you/lose me/hate me/smash me/erease me

and La Mer

when the day arrives/I'll become the sky/I'll become the sea/and the sea will come to kiss me/for I am going home/nothing can stop me now
Ofcourse hurt is also another favorite but like I said I love all the songs too much. In fact the lyrics to Eraser and La Mer are written on the bottom of my shoe as a personal reminder of how I feel about myself. (Yes I know that sounds silly)

4. How has listening to Nine Inch Nails affected your life (if at all)

1998 perhaps was my most personal year, troubling, disturbing and hurtful, one album answered that for me, Downward Spiral. Yeah I got into NIN a bit late, the funny thing was that after I got into NIN I realized that the music had always been in my fabric work, I mean that sounds weird but listening to NIN made me realize I could be whole even if I felt somewhat dead inside. I'd wanted to feel the music for a long time. I bought Downward Spiral on a whim, only having been exposed to NIN from Bowie's I'm Afraid of Americans and NIN's edited Closer video, which was intriguing. I was sick of pretending to be one of the mindless sheep, fearful I may have been one of the mindless followers, I'd always been independent and couldn't suppress it anymore. So my whim was a mixture of anger, animal like hurt, and a need to find lost parts of myself. Upon my first listen of Spiral I was nauseous, disgusted, creeped out and very intrigued. I put the CD aside for awhile, already the music had wormed itself deep inside me, but I couldn't bring myself to be healed by the music until the Christmas season . This time I heard and felt thing in the music that I identified with, not simply the music but the music and the voice that carried such a mystical pain, so universal yet so isolated. It brought my suppressed voice out, needing to "fit in" was no longer a consideration. I knew I'd found the sound that pushed me outward, that pushed me over the edge.

5. Has it changed your political, moral or life choices?

Ofcourse NIN affected some of my life choices, I've always been independent but NIN gave me an understanding of what people could do even if they
could never be whole. It also gave me a tolerance for many things I'd been ashamed or frightened of. Nine Inch Nails didn't change me, it improved me,
helped me do things I'd been terrified of doing, helped me let people know what I was. I realized I was a writer, a creator, an outspoken artist, good or bad it didn't matter these were things I'd never let out of the room with me. It helped me to realize my purpose, though it sounds trite, it meant the world to me.

6. Are there any aspects of Nine Inch Nails that you disagree with?

Not really, the people of NIN fascinate me, to see that people as intelligent as that can exist gives me hope on a daily basis. Surely everyone has made
mis-steps but it has only added quality to the music and I'd never disagree with that. As long as the music can exist and the musicians can be safe and dare I say content I'm happy for that.

7. How has listening to Nine Inch Nails affected the people around you?

No one in my everyday life enjoys NIN, a cousin or two have some like of them and one even joined me at the Anaheim show. But as a whole NIN isn't
something that those I exist around are on either side of.

8. To what end do you like NIN (the whole package, the music, the lyrics, the people or other and why)

NIN as a whole, I could spend my life loving it all, the music, the lyrics, the voice, the man behind it, his faithful crew and the list goes on. My mere words do little justice but humbly I say through my research i've loved the fans, loved their intelligence, their words, their humility and their love. Yes as with all things there are those who ruin the purity of it by lying, being cruel or me in my lapse misunderstanding. But NIN is a powerful liquor one must experience many times to draw even the smallest taste of the heavenly concoction, a complex beauty I've lost myself in.