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Two-spirited history
I am feeling as if time has passes me by. Here I sit and wonder what is all this for anyway. I am that female spirit who lives in a life in a male body. This brings me nothing but pain. I am forced by the spirits to do their bidding. I am lonely and afraid. Who said this was all it was cracked up to be. Two-spirited living is horrible. Why does it have to be so hard. I am looking for support from you if you can look my way. I am tired, I am worn and I am weak. I wonder why they choose me. I have fought a great fight, I have won nothing but the rememberance of a history of our peoples-two spirited history. Yes they told me where we came from. They told me how to bring our world back to the circle in its place. I can't do it alone. I am looking for all of my sisters and brothers out there whomever who they are. I am looking to start a war, this war has already begun with our sisters and brothers off the reservation. It is war of a history, I will not let this blood line die. The voices from time began, these souls call me. My sisters have called to me from the grave, searching for an answer. They tell me our blood is in your veins don't let it die. Here where I live they kill us and try to destroy us. I don't think they understand the sacredness of our being, as we are. My grandmother told me that it was here that we chose to come, (my grandmother came form a very famous and powerful medicineman. He is my great-great-grandfather for protection I cannot reveal thier identities and mine) The sacred being wakinya, (Thunder beings) came to this earth plane to save the human beings and to bring back his children. They have gotten lost on they're way. There is another who feeds on the souls of the two spirited. He is beautiful and so so so nice to look at. He has no flaws but one. You can smell his spirit. It is foul and the smell is protected by a stone. This stone he wears on his finger. He will hunt you down and destroy you. He is the one who will drag you across the sky by your hair at the end of a thunder storm until someone comes and prays you out. It was said that if they did not complete their journey here on this earth. He would own them and they would be dragged across the sky by their hair. You see the two spirited have powerful powers and the other spiritual leaders of today don't want them to stand, for their own works pale in comparision. There is no one now but one and that is I (who dare say). You will have to find me. Even the other medicine people become jealous, they want this to die, I WILL NOT LET IT, it must not die. I am sending this out to you my sisters and brothers. I am sending my voice out to you to find it in your heart to bring this back to our people to our way of life. Spirits have told me things about it, but I don't know everything. The only thing I can do is to send my voice out to you. To those of you who want to listen. It is in my not telling you who I am, that I am save. It must be this way so for now. I tell you no lies, for I am truth, I have to they watch. My email address please forgive me regarding the qween part, I am a qween I guess. But I am also Lakota.
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