These are some of my poems!!
Hi! My name is Justin and I love to write poetry. I am sixteen years old and I live in Arkansas. If you want to e-mail me, my e-mail is
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Better Off Dead
If you ever feel alone
don't come to me
cause you never tried to be friends with me
so why should I befriend you?
The pain inside is unbearable
Sometimes I just think to myself
Would I be better off dead?
As of now, I am not quite sure yet
It's a shame, how some people have all the friends
but for the rest, like me
I can't have anybody
Would I be better off dead?
If I just had a friend
Someone to keep me inline
Someone I can hold
And say that she's mine
But until that happens
I'll just keep dreaming
Keep wondering, keep asking the same question
Would I be better off dead?
For I know the answer will come
Someday, someway, somehow
Would I be better off dead?
I think I have the answer now
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Darkness
My life is void of light
All darkness, no happiness, no forgiveness for myself
I lay quiet and still though I am suffocated by the putrid lonliness that haunts my heart
Near tears I wait
For someone, anyone to find me all alone and actually care
I can't wait much longer
For I've had all the darkness I can bear
Feeling alone is not so bad
Not if you can get used to feeling so sad
I haven't made it to that stage quite yet,
Though I can't be too much farther I'd bet
Why should anyone have to feel this way?
What's the point of crying all night and day?
Just leave all the loners alone
For thier lives too, are void of any light
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R.I.P
When I die
Soon I hope
Will I fly?
Chances are...nope
Rest in peace
is hard to do
When my soul burns in hell
Rest in peace, is only for you
Can I change?
I don't know
Should I try?
What's the point?
There's no reason to change
When I know No one cares
Sit around and cry all night
While I stare at the wall
So all I can say is R.I.P to you
It won't have any effect on me
I'm so lonely I hope to die
The day the people I know will jump with joy and glee!
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CRYING
I sit on my bed
Crying aloug
Never to wed
Covered by a darkened cloud
No one to talk to
No one that cares
Crying on the inside
While the t.v. blankly stares
I'm hurt on the inside
No ego, no friends, no pride
Left to stare at the wall
From the world I hide
Waiting for the second of relief
The second I strive for day and night
the second this life falls from my hands
the second i get the relief to die.
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This is not my last one, but if you want some more, you have to e-mail me to get um!!
My Apologies
I'm sorry for the way I feel
Sometimes I just get so sad
I'm sorry for the way you feel
Not caring, about the way your cold heart hurts me so bad
I'm sorry for the pain I caused
Though no one but me got hurt
I'm sorry for the way I paused
The way I treated everyone like dirt
I'm sorry no one ever offered help
The way I thought you would
I'm sorry I never asked anyway
Although I knew I should
But if I'm gone from here real soon
I just wanted you to know
Despite all the despair and gloom
In death I shall glow
I'd like to offer all my apologies
Though it probably won't help
Through stricken, fallen strategies
I cried as I whelped
The nights real long, the pain real deep
I am still awake
Though I yearn for some sleep
The pain I shall take
This is all I can give you
I plead you take it despite of me
This is all I could ever do
Please accept my apologies.
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Left Behind
When your best friend doesn't talk to you anymore
just because he now has a girlfriend
You know you have been left behind
You know you no longer fit in
It happens to me almost everyday
My friends gone with their "friends"
Leaving me to hurt and cry in every way
Why I do that, the answer depends
Out of seven people, six are together
Leaving me left behind to be alone
Suffering with pain like stormy weather
My heart plummeting like a heavy stone
Standing outside in the crisp, cool air
Wanting to cry out of anger and fear
Why does my life have to seem so unfair
I wonder as I force myself to hold back the tears
When only one of your friends ever talk to you
Remember how you heart was so sad
You now feel not so left behind
your feelings now don't hurt so painfully bad.
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THIS IS ONE I WROTE ON FEBUARY THE 15.
Rejection
There is a newfound bitterness in my heart
One that just got a new start
It's the kind that makes suicide sound so good
The kind where you never feel understood.
The kind where you are working all day, yet your up all night
The kind where it's your own tears that you have to fight
The people say that love is an art
But your not good enough so you can't take part
For the last three days, the tears freely flowed
Oh, God the pain to feel my heart explode
Staring at the wall, giving up hope
No one wants to be with you, your everyones scapegoat
Your just a dog, a mutt and nothing more
Not for anyone should you open your hearts door.
Go back to the pills, go back to the drugs
Don't expect anymore warm hugs
Please! No more pain, no more tears, no more hunger inside
She took away my heart, she took away my pride
No more reason to live, for all is totally lost
I can now die in shame, and not think of the cost
The Lord may be with me, but he must not care
For the pain inside is just too hard to bear
As I sit here and think of my many reflections
I realize I'm nothing more than a giant rejection.
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I don't know why i exactly wrote this, i was just bored i guess.
WHY ME?
Through my confusion, I find
No one likes me anymore
So many people that are so unkind
Mow my hope is below the floor
Lonliness as thick as steel
No longer can i take the pain
No one ever cared how i feel
Alway's wondering, "Should I quit this game?"
If I quit, who would care?
Don't you think you should?
My life is so unfair
I didn't think you would
To die is gain, to live would be loss
Wiating will not work
How Will I ever meet anyone
Since i am such a jerk?
I only have one question
For the answer i can't seem to see
The question I ask at last
Why me God???...........Why me?
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wrote this one on April 1, 2002
SUICIDE
With a shot of a gun, my life laid down
No more tears for me
In a box my lips a frown
Everyone filled with glee
My life could seem so unfair
Something I never knew
My funeral would be so bare
No one showed but you
I never have loved
Nor loved not have I been
One thing I ask
Please forgive this unforgivable sin
Why did no one love me?
I know I’m ugly at first glance
I bet that you regret it now
That you never gave me a chance
Why, may I ask?
Pain down to the bone
Did you honestly think that I would last?
Well tough! Now I’m gone.
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and this one on April 3, 2002
LAMB
Blackened heart, rainy nights
Lies deep in my soul
Darkened clouds without a light
Never to be made whole
Through it all i sit and cry
Complain, pout, and moan
Sometimes i just wanna die
And make your troubles gone
Every night I sit and whine
My tears run over the cup
But at school i say i'm fine
When people ask what's up
Class after class i go and go
Getting worse every hour
My hearts an ugly, darkened hole
From calling myself a liar
You can call me what you want
I know just what i am
I'm a lot worse than you thought
Yet as gentle as a lamb.
April 3, 2002
justin m.
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