My Webpage Of Poems
Hey Everyone, This is my Webpage! Yeah, i just made it so its not all that great, but dont worry I'm working on it! Most of u probly dont know but i like writing poems a lot, so I'm gonna put my poems in here, and a lotta my poems are about people (my friends or enemies) so if u wanna know if the poems about u just IM me at sisterjiggypoo! And i know theyre a lot of em, and theyre like supa long, but maybe read the title, then think if u wanna read it, or just read the authors name or sumthing like that, but please at least take a short look at em! Okay, here are the poems (the name of the poem's author is underneath the poem)*hope you like it* (my poems are the first ones on the list if ya wanna read those):
*THESE ARE REALLY OLD POEMS< YELL AT ME EVERYDAY AND EVENTUALLY ILL TAKE TIME TO TYPE MY NEW ONES ON THE COMPUTER!!*
Title: Flight
And with the last tear, of blood from my eyes,
I kissed my life, A farewell and Good bye,
So i stand on the table with the gun to my head,
I hope you all knew that today I'd be dead,
I look out my window, out into the night,
Maybe death is like taking a flight,
You dont know where your going, dont know when itll end
We die when theres things we cant mend,
As i look out the window i think of jumping,
then suddenly i hear a thumping,
My sister walks into the room,
Her face looks like shes seen doom,
With me on the table with a gun to my head,
I say sister, dont worry i wont really be dead
She crys and runs out the door,
I know this is it, I cant take it anymore
I pull the trigger, I feel no pain,
But please know this shot was not in vain,
I did this for you, to prove what is right
And Fearlessly i died, but with flight
*grace Chanin* (this is a new one)
Title: Fight
She sits there looking out at the earth
She could be there,but she went crazy first
She cut herself,She overdosed
In life she was loathed
She cried at night
Her life was a fight
She was losing it
She wanted to quit
She was anorexic,Bullimic to
She never knew what to do
Her mom yelled,Her dad wasnt there
She even pulled out her own hair
She'd do anything just to feel pain
She'd cut her wrist,Every Vain
Her parents sent her away
They wanted for her to be okay
Now she sits there,staring out at the good life
And asks herself why'd i ever touch that knife
Then the nurse walks in
She says it's time for bed again
She crys herself to sleep that night
She doesnt know it,but shes winning the fight
*Grace Chanin*
Title: GraveYard
The bones rot, the spirits fly
This is where im going to die
Heavy mist covers the ground
Nothing dares to make a sound
I lie and die, sit and cry
Waiting for some ones help
But no one comes to rescue me
They all just let me be
No one sees the pain i hide
For its all on the inside
But when its over we will be
In the graveyard, just you and me
Just sitting, waiting, feeling pain
Pretty soon it starts to rain
I think about my life
Then i reach for the knife
I cut your throat and mine too
I wanted to die, and so did you
We died together, lied together
And our spirit will live forever
Our memories dont last very long
No one even notices we're gone
But together we did die
I looked for soul in your eye
We died in eachothers arms
Lying in the Grave Yard
*Grace Chanin*
Title: Black Love
Love...
Some say it isnt real
Some say its just what you feel
But i believe in black love
Your heart flutters like a dove
You feel so great, you dont wanna die
You are floating in the sky
Its eternal bliss
Its the endless kiss
Its everything great
You think its fate
So now you ask, isnt this love?
No I say this is black love...
You'll feel pain
You think "he's so vain"
He breaks your heart, you wanna die
But all you do is sit and cry
Black love is great till all the black hits
When you both just yell and throw fits
You relized i loved him but he never loved me
You finally start beginning to see
Wut this was all really about
Then all you do is stand and shout
You find out all he did was push and shove
Im sorry you've been hit with the evil, BLACK LOVE!
*Grace Chanin*
Title: One Rose Dies
one Pental dies
The secrets lie
Everyones gone
I've been here too long
Petal Two
Who would've knew
My life would be like htis
I've Loss all hapiness
All of the petals drop dead
A million ideas go through my head
I feel so depressed
And my mind is just messed
Quickly the leaves die too
I have no idea what i should do
Just let it be
My spirit has already left me
The stem is the next to die
No one even said good bye
Eventually there's nothing left
Just the pot, blind and deaf
One rose dies, painfully slow
That rose was my life im the next to go
Now an empty pot sits in the soon
The next thing i know, Im'm grabbing a gun...
*Grace Chanin*
Title: No Better Than Dead
She lies there still,
She took a pill
It was ending her life,
She would grab a knife
cut till she could cut no more,
everyone else called her a whore
They said she was a slut,
prostiture, bitch, a mutt
They wish they could take it all back,
Stopped and given her some slack
But its too late now,
everything thinks how
how could this happen so fucking fast,
well we all know now the past is the past
now shes wearing all black, tears no one holds back
She lies right there,
with her golden blonde hair
It lies there covering her face,
Her parents think they're a disgrace
She lies in her coffin,
People are crying quite often
All because...
She took some pills,
and chopped of her head
Now she lies there
no better than dead.
*Grace Chanin*
Title: Good Bye
I look at him
He looks at me
We know that it could never be
I cheated on him
He lied to me
Neither of us can be together
Even just friends is a never
We've gone to far
We Can't go back
Friends forever we will lack
We cant be friends, we cant be lovers
Inside we hate each other
He smiles and we laugh
Our friends dont know half
Half of wut happened between us
Was full of blood and gore, must
Must Our hearts be broken
It's like a token
To a life with him I'd never have
We were going to die, We felt bad
We looked cute and happy too
Everyone thought "its too good to be true"
No one saw what we tried to hide
All the pain and suffering we kept inside
Nobody understands
Nobody knows
Why we let each other go
It's all gone, there's nothing left
You robbed me like a theif
You took my heart, and made me cry
And all I have left to say is "Good Bye"
*Grace Chanin*
Title: I'm Sorry
I'm sorry i hurt u
Im sorry i made you cry
I loved him, I wanted to die
I was with you, it was great
But I knew it wasnt my fate
I lied to you, I told you forever
But inside i knew never
Never could this be so good
I always knew that I should
That I should've said what I felt
I shouldve went and delt
Delt with my feelings from inside
Because I knew it was all a lie
I loved him more than you
I hate what I put you through
I hate how I would feel
When i knew wasnt real
But what can i do, except sit and tell you
Im sorry i lied
I wish i could die
Im sorry i hurt u
I didnt mean too
Im sorry, I had to let u go
But i know that you know
that i'll always love you
as lovers, no
But as friends I'll never let you go
*Grace Chanin*
Title: I Love You
You hug me, I kiss your cheek
I look at you, You look so sleek
I feel a special bond with you
Like i know that this is true
This isnt a dream, Its all real
And from this i wont need to heal
You wont hurt me, I know that
I shouldnt treat you like a mat
I abuse you, then i feel bad
Cuz your the best friend I've ever had
I tell you everything, I trust you
And I hope you trust me too
Because I know that, I love you
Love was a black dove, only there to hurt me
But us, I know we're meant to be
I've fallen for you, I can't turn back
Love is something we dont lack
You say you won't hurt me, I know it's true
Cuz the one i love, yeah, its you
I know that your on my side
And that you would never lie
My heart was scarred black and blue
Bruises so thick you couldnt see through
You cleared that away, Im happy now
And i just sit and think wow
You changed my life
I dont need that knife
This is to good to be true
Now I know I love you
*Grace Chanin*
Title: Depression
I lie quietly in my bed
By morning I'll, for sure, be dead
I took so many pills
The pain it kills
I sit starring into space
I hear my heat beat
My heart and brain meet
Is this how i wanna die?
I feel so much pain on the inside
I look at myself and htink 'how'?
I look around, Look at what I'll miss
College, Prom, The Perfect Kiss
I'll miss everyone growing old
Getting wealthy, Finding gold
Slowly i cannot see
I feel the pain grow inside of me
I have nothing left to say
All my dreams just fade away
No matter what i do
I know you already knew
Suddenly my heart turns to stone
I have a disease quite well known
I've had a serious sadness obcession
Much better known as depression
*Grace Chanin*
Title: Because of you
YOu call me a whore
Now I'm dead on the floor
With a knife in my pocession
It was just a obcession
Why can't you just let me be
Why can't you try to see
What i was going through
It was all because of you
*Grace Chanin*
Title: What I Went Through
I look at you, I turn around
I dont move, dont make a sound
U hear your voice, I cry with pain
I feel my pulse, every vain
YOu hand touches me
Please just let me be
Leave me alone, let me live my life
Please, please put down the knife
Your holding the knife, your thrashing at me
i look down, you cut my knee
You grab me arm
You say "i mean no harm"
I grab the phone, dial 9-1-1
You take the phone, i get up and run
I look back to see if your there
I see lots of blood in my hair
You are running very fast
I know this run, is my run of death
YOu grab me, you stab me too
You have no idea what im going through
I hear you laugh then i scream
Your face is bloody, and looks so mean
I run and i slowly die
YOu look at me, not one tear do you cry
You jab me with the knife
That stab takes my life
But now im dead
Blood I shead
You look at me, you laugh too
You have no idea what i went through
*Grace Chanin*
Title: THEY SAY
They say i cant be great
but i cant realate
my troubled mind
has been left behind
their all going so fast
they've put me in the past
to them im rotten
bad to the bone
but all i want is a true home
when they think of player
they look at me
on nights i dont run wild and free
not liek they think
im not all that bad
they always make me so sad
im not the person you dont want your kids to be
they might think i look weird
dont be feared
im a good person
i think of others
when i come around everyone mutters
you can judge me
but keep the vedict to yourself
cause if you dont it'll hurt my health
so just give me a chance
and you'll see
im not the bad person you thought me to be
~Lindsay M. Jones~
Title: ON THE INSIDE
All the girls walk around
talking about everything
but im blocking out the sound
all i think of is you
i know if you gave me a chance
i would be true to you
but you ignore me
step up before me
inside i cry
i wish i would die
pretending i dont care for you
this isnt living
its just all fibbing
i dont wanna live if i cant have you
on the inside, im blue
im just a disortion
my mother should have had an abortion
people dont care for me
you dont even see
the pain i should feel
but i dont
this doesnt seem real
nothing comes to mind
on the inside im blind
i hide in the darkness
i just sit here and rest
tears stream down my face
this earth is a horrible place
thers nothing for me here
inside, its all fear
~Lindsay M Jones~
Yeah i hope you like em! Take em if u want but give the author credit where ever u put it! o yeha and EVAN MINKEMA IS HOT HOT HOT!
*Grace Chanin*
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