~ Goddess Kali ~
Kali is said to have emanated from the brow of Goddess Durga (slayer of demons) during one of the battles between the divine and anti-divine forces. She is an echo of the woman warrior's fierce virginal autonomy. In this context Kali is considered the 'forceful' form of the great goddess Durga.
Kali's human and maternal qualities continue to define the goddess for most of her devotees to this day. In human relationships, the love between mother and child is usually considered the purest and strongest. In the same way, the love between the Mother Goddess and her human children is considered the closest and tenderest relationship with divinity. Accordingly, Kali's devotees form a particularly intimate and loving bond with her. But the devotee never forgets Kali's demonic, frightening aspects. He does not distort Kali's nature and the truths she reveals; he does not refuse to meditate on her terrifying features. He mentions these repeatedly in his songs but is never put off or repelled by them. Kali may be frightening, the mad, forgetful mistress of a world spinning out of control, but she is, after all, the Mother of all. As such, she must be accepted by her children- accepted in wonder and awe, perhaps, but accepted nevertheless.
I had my first experience with Kali in Natasha's house. I was temporarily living with her and her two children. One night I was home alone and recieved a phone call from Brandy who was in distress over a conflict she had with a friend. After the phone call, I watched a little t.v. then fell asleep. I awoke later to Tasha and her children coming home. I slept on the couch in the living room so the light from the porch woke me. Miguel, her youngest, kneeled beside me and Tasha told him to leave me alone that I was sleeping. I quickly fell back to sleep, only to be startled, what seemed to be a few moments later, by what I thought had been an earthquake. We live in Nevada, although quakes are rare here, they are certainly a possibility. I rushed to turn the television back on to see if there was anything on the news about it. I had never experienced one before and the building I was in, a duplex, shook pretty violently. To my astonishment, there was nothing on the news. All of sudden, I felt fear overwhelm me. I cannot explain it, but I felt Kali around me and she was pissed off. Mind you, I did not know much about her and had not found my religious path yet. In fact, at this time, I guess you could say I was atheist, I didn't believe in anything religious, including a higher being.
Frightened by what I was feeling I ran back to Tasha's bedroom...she was not there. I ran to the kid's room...they were not there. Later I had realized that they hadn't even come home. It was truly mind boggling at the time. I had been awake, I had seem them come into the house, what the hell was going on?
I eventually fell back asleep. The next morning when Tasha and the kid's came home (they had all stayed the night with her estranged better-half), I explained all of this to her. I was determined to find out if there had been a quake that night. She knew nothing of it, and there was no broadcasting of it. Natasha immediately pulled out the Londa and asked Goddess for answers. She saw how upset I was and knew that I needed help in understanding what happened.
Apparently, the cards revealed, that a strange man was lurking outside of the house that night, he knew that I was alone, and it angered Kali so that she shook the very ground he was walking on. Perhaps, not physically, but he felt it. He felt it enough to retreat and never come back. As for my vision of Natasha and the children entering the house...I still don't know what that was all about. Perhaps, it was a sign of something that was to come. I don't know. Maybe it was Kali's way of preparing me for her anger. Thinking that Tasha was in the home with me, might have comforted me, during the shake and Kali's angry presence. Although, it didn't work, cause my dumbass got too scared and ran to Tasha's room to wake her up.
Maa Kali protected me that night. From that moment on, I've worshipped this beloved Goddess. She was (and still is) in essence my protector, my mother.
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