A MANIC DEPRESSIVE'S STRANGE VIEW OF THE WORLD
What to say? Shall I ramble on about the before and after syndrome that comes with being diagnosed as a manic depressive? Or about how much I hate the word bi-polar? Or just maybe I should shroud myself with some self-centred diatribe about how unfair the lousy world is? AARRRGGGHHHH nobody understands me!!!! Well now that that's out of the way I will just drift along spouting out a thought here and there, might make you laugh, might make you cry.... I guess I could give you all the medical stuff I have learned since being diagnosed as a nut, uh, I mean manic depressive. But frankly I'm bored by the medical community. They want to use you as a guinea pig or they get real stuck on one of your tales of extremism. I'm mean I'm a manic depressive for crying out loud! Of course I do extreme things when I'm manic. Isn't that what being manic is all about? And I thought these guys had heard everything. So I spent a little (ok a lot) of money during a manic stage and all I can remember is buying a vacuum cleaner. So why keep asking me "and just what did you buy with ALL that money?". Once again, let me reiterate, HOW THE HELL DO I KNOW?, you guys are supposed to have the answers. Well give me some answers then. How about telling me why lithium makes you gain a 100 pounds? And turns you into a big fat zombie whose biggest daily accomplishment is running to the washroom with the runs and having to puke at the same time? Can some doc answer me that? Or why people say "if you could just change your attitude you could be normal again?" What the hell does that mean? What attitude are they talking about? Everyone is so full of advice - 99% of it useless but I guess people mean well. More to come...........
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