BLESSED RAIN
When I'm on top of the world
Flying high with the eagles
Landing on cloud nine
All fluffy white, with silver lining...
That's when black clouds begin to gather
Rearing their ugly heads
Surrounding me until there is no escape
From the drenching, down-pour of rain
Blessed rain...a gift from God
When I'm at the end of the road
Shamefully low, without hope
Agonizing pain as my pillow
The pointed darts penetrating my mind,
That's when the sun comes shining through...
Reflecting prisms of color
Cascading down its promising release
From darkness to full enlightenment
Blessed rainbow...sweet gift from God
When I'm unmindful of life's purpose
Falling rain cleanses my eyes
Humbling me down so low
The only place left to go is up,
That's when the Son comes shining through
Empowering me with strength
Recalling past experiences of escape
From great sorrow to unspeakable joy
Blessed rain, wise gift of God
IN BETWEEN
In between the dark and the light
Is a place so soothing
It will lull you into a state of euphoria
So high that you won't realize you've fallen
Until you awaken to a deep dark pit
Of despair so deep, you can't breathe
As sinister hands hold you in a choking grip
That will never let you go.
In between the black and white
Is a color so vibrant
That it coerces you to a place of ecstacy
So addicting and satisfying in its potency
That you'll never again settle for less
As you become used to the sensation
Of delicate hands squeezing the life from you.
It's YOU that won't let go.
"lord of my Life"
"lord" of my life how I long for you
From the moment I awake 'til deep in the night
Thoughts of "you" are my constant companion.
You are forever on my mind and
I can't get you out of my system.
Too much of you is never enough;
I'll do whatever it takes to keep you within my reach
For you have enslaved me and without you, I am alone.
Losing you would be like losing myself
For we are so close,
You have become me, and I, you.
Life without you would be the death of me.
That very thought moves me to reach for you
As again and again I partake of what you have to offer.
Hoping it won't be last time...
And hoping, somehow, it will be.
WALKING DEAD MAN
If I don't look, I cannot see....My eyes are tightly shut
If I don't listen, I cannot hear...I use selective hearing
If I don't speak, you cannot answer...my mouth is ever silent
If I don't touch, I can't be rejected...I push you away, defiant
To reach out would be to admit my need...I stand alone.
If I don't care, I cannot hurt...I strive hard not to care
If I don't try, I cannot fail...I pretend not to try
If I don't stand, I cannot fall...Sitting down is safe
If I don't fret, I cannot cry...My tears have been erased
To cry out would be to admit I'm weak...I am in control.
LADY VENOM
Her love is like a poison
Addicting unto death
With no warning voice of doom
She slowly steals his breath
So very good to look upon
Pleasing to the eye
But hid from the beholder
Is the fact that he must die
So very sweet the words of love
Tickling the burning ear
Whispers from a flaming tongue
Disguising death so near
So delicious, the taste of life
Satisfying a hunger, untamed
Oblivious of the grand finale
Until he feels the pain
So vivid is the smell of death
As he takes his final ride
Paralyzed by the deadly prick
A present from his bride
So lethal is the spread of venom
It steals his final breath
As she looks down on another fool
Ignorant unto death
DANGEROUS MINDS
Underneath the pure white snow
Lies a secret, black as death
Hidden there beneath her folds
Lest anyone should guess
Behind the brightness of her smile
An incessant frown resides
Undiscovered and unobserved
By anyone's natural eyes
Beyond his scope of imagination
Dwells a soul of vilest deeds
Lying dormant within his walls
Impatient to be freed
Beneath his mask of innocence
Malice is held at bay
Patiently waiting to apply its skill
On unsuspecting prey
An undeniable kiss of death
To all that wait in line
Foolishly turning the very key
That unlocks a dangerous mind
Unbelievable, the irony of fate
If the twain should meet
Violently ridding all mankind
Of the innocent and sweet
WHAT LIES BENEATH
Underneath her beautiful surface is an ugly so deep
that it goes far beyond skin and deep down into her bones.
It's an ugly that will eat you like acid rain,
one drop at a time as to make you smug
and con you into thinking that you are the man
that can take the pain and survive.
You are duped into believing that you are the ONE
that will get away scot free and are so blinded,
you fail to see that even if you do make it out alive,
you'll be so scarred that you won't even recognize yourself.
When you finally do look in the mirror
you will forget the man you once were
and see, instead, what you've become...
No longer does the beast lie beneath the man,
But the man...he lies beneath the beast.
DEAFENING WHISPERS
"Speak softly", you whisper to me
. . .I cannot. My heart is full to overflowing
. . .and my excitement can't be hidden or
. . .contained behind soft speech. I remain,
. . .as always, loud in my exuberance.
You shake your head sadly, in pity.
"Play softly", you instruct me.
. . .I try and I fail. My emotions well
. . .up from deep down inside and escape
. . .from my fingertips onto the ivory
. . .keys, revealing all that is in my soul.
You hold your ears and walk away.
"Walk softly when you walk by me"
. . .I could never sneak and pretend to be
. . .where I'm not. I do wish I could retrace
. . .my steps at times, but what's done is done,
. . .my footsteps leaving a heavy mark.
You turn and walk silently away.
"Come fly away with me in secrecy"
. . .I cannot. For your intense need for total
. . .silence is as alien to me, as my need to
. . .shout for joy, is to to you. We could never
. . .hope to meet in the middle.
You walk away with silent memories.
I go to my music and drown in rememberance.
JADED
When he asked her to marry him
and she said "Yes" with no reservations
She gave her all.
In that first year of adjustment
when changes needed to be made
She gave her all.
When the children came with their needs
as well as the demands of her husband
Still, she gave her all.
As the needs of family and job increased
until she was stretched beyond her limit
She still gave her all.
And when he left her for another woman
because she wasn't giving enough
She finally understood...
She'd given all, for nothing.
COME MONDAY
You rarely kiss me anymore
When I see you to the door
You don't miss me while you're gone
You don't care if I'm alone
I tell myself that you won't leave
I'm living a lie that I believe
You never ask how my day was spent
You never ask me where I went
You never say what I want to hear
Or whisper sweet things in my ear
But I tell myself that you still care
Holding on as long as I dare
You used to hold me in your arms
You used to love to keep me warm
You used to squeeze me in the night
You weren't ashamed to hold me tight
But I tell myself that I'm to blame
While clinging to a love that's lame
In your sleep, you hold me close
In your sleep, I'm not a ghost
In your sleep, you play my game
Even though you call her name
I tell myself that I heard wrong
I keep on singing the same old song
One day I'll cease to live this lie
One day I'll gladly say good-bye
One day I'll build another life
Free from you and free from strife
I tell myself that Monday's the day
But it's Tuesday now, and here I stay
THE SOUND OF SILENCE
I once heard the beautiful sound of birds singing
and with rejoicing, I joined their chorus
These days, I simply hear the haunting sounds of owls
and I am filled with neither joy nor sadness...
I wish I could go back, but I have lost my voice
I once filled my heart with the sound of music
completely lost in perfect harmony
These days, the walls echo with the sound of silence
and I am left totally void of emotion...
I need to feel, but I've carelessly lost my senses
I once saw beauty in all my surroundings
looking closely to uncover the good
These days, my eyes have become sightless
and I am uncaring that I am blind...
I want to see, but darkness has already fallen
I once felt the tear as it streamed down my face
leaving sweet peace within its wake
These days, my cold heart is left untouched
and I am too numb to even care...
I long to go back, but the past is dead and gone
I once knew that there was hope in hopeless
seeing the rainbow after the rain
These days, I've foolishly refused to look up
and I am too proud to change...
I wish I could, but it's much too late...or is it???
PRACTICED INDIFFERENCE
The bottle lies empty and broken
Amidst the scattered debris
I look to find sadness within your eyes
But apathy is all I see
The tears fall heavy and often
Prodding my heart to fail
I listen to hear an excuse from you lips
But silence tells the tale
The road is rocky and uneven
Causing me to fall down
I wait to feel you take hold of my hand
But you are not to be found
The bottle lies empty and broken
Amidst the cluttered debris
I look to find apathy within my eyes
But sadness is all I see
THE PUPPET MASTER
The master controls the puppet
with strings attached...
He can make her say "Yes" with a flick of his wrist.
Making her dance takes a little more effort...
still it's worth seeing his magic work
as she moves up and down beneath the span of his hands.
She is his forever.
The puppet amuses the master
no questions asked...
She can turn his head without uttering a single sound.
Seeing such passion in his eyes frightens her...
still the taste of love overcomes her fear
as she freely gives to him what he eagerly claims as his own.
He is hers forever.
The master tires of the puppet
the strings released...
They fall upon the empty stage with a hollow thud.
Observing her inability to cry out, he's sorry...
still it's not enough to make him stay
Miraculous tears fall with the rhythm of his retreating steps.
His and hers forever.
DREAM AWAY
For many weeks past
I have slept as the dead
Too many restless nights spent
Looking for pleasant slumber
Have pushed me over the edge
To a deep, bottomless sleep
Even free of dreams
Ever free of dreams
For long nights in a row
I have tossed and turned
Busily searching mind and body
For a tiny glimpse of the place
Where lives. . ."Once upon a time"
Going where I want to go
If only in my dreams
If only I could dream
THE CALM BEFORE THE STORM
Nothing but calm
Instilling warmth and peace
Bathing the earth in yellow-green hues
Painting an illusion of calmness at hand
Nothing but wind
Blowing fierce and strong
Rocking the trees with her powerful moves
Leaving only the strongest to stand
Nothing but rain
Pounding steady and hard
Flooding the earth with surprising grace
Her liquid blanket, covering the land
Nothing but blackness
Falling heavy and thick
Blinding all who dare look on her face
Holding them hostage as long as she can
Nothing but silence
Sounding eerie and lone
Screaming for stillness, at long last
Restoring calmness, once again
Nothing but the storm
Rebuilding fast and strong
Venting an anger, unsurpassed
Proclaiming God's power to blasé men.
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