Jennifer Loves Mark
They say the best things in life are free. I suppose I have to believe that. They don't cost money. They just take work, patience, and time. I have thought I have loved in the past. I love my childrens father still. But it does not compare to what I feel for Mark. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me(excluding my children of course). My love for him and the feeling I get when I am with him is like nothing I have ever known before.
In the beginning I had planned on being just his friend. I needed that at the time. He didn't want more and I knew that so I thought it was safe. No chance of anything more to come of it. Well was I wrong. I had friends and coworkers tell me "yeah, he's just a friend that's what they all say". I guess they were right. I fell head over heels in love with him.
I had known him for at least 5 years before we started hanging out together on nights when my kids were at their Dad's house. I had someone safe to do things with so he and I went out quite often. I had just really gotten over the end of a very bad relationship and even now I'm learning I still have issues from that to deal with. I told him I loved him, he told me he only wanted to be friends. I said I'd wait until he was ready if he thought there was a possibility .. he said he couldn't say there wasn't. I decided that since I'd never had feelings like this before, that it would be worth the wait even if he decided he never wanted anything more the friendship. Impatient though I am, I did wait, but didn't hide my feelings for him. Then came the day when he sat me down and told me that he really didn't think he could ever date me. There were complications, jealousy between my sister (his long time friend) and myself over his time. So after that little talk, I decided I needed to tell my sister how I felt. She told Mark hey.. date her if you want to.
The next day Mark and I and a few friends had had a trip planned to Cedar Point. So I, thinking that he didn't want more then friendship, backed off the entire trip to Cedar Point. I was so depressed. I enjoyed being with him, but yet had the feeling of hurt still lingering.
Much to Mark's dismay I cried most of the way home. He really didn't have a clue why. Basically I had come to the realization that even though I loved this man, I had no chance. The next day he asked me on a "real" date for the first time. The rest is history. The turning point was that weekend.
Now for the entire world to know. Mark, I love you more then any man I have ever known. My children and You come first in my life. I will love you until the end of time. You are my best friend, my lover, my soul mate, my partner. I am so happy that fate brought us together. I'll do my best to make you happy for the rest of your life.
OH WHAT FUN!!!
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