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11 year old Aaron Carter was lying in his bed, not moving.
It hurt too much.
Even though the sun had been up for a long time, he had'nt managed to get out of bed.
He had a headache form hell and all the bruises that were covering his body ached like there was no tomorrow.
He had just managed to close his eyes without screaming in pain, when he heared whisteling down the hall.
The whisteling belonged to Aaron's 19 year old brother and Backstreet Boys member Nick Carter, who had gotten home from a 6 month long tour the previous evning.
Nick was walking down the hall in his boxers happily huming on a song.
"Oh, what a beautiful morning , oh what a beautiful day, I'm going out fishing and Aaron is comming along, oh what a beautiful morning, oh what a beautiful day", he sang loudly.
Nick went into the room he shared with Aaron.
"Hey bro!, time to get up", Nick squealled happy.
Aaron did'nt respond.
"AC, we're going out to the keys today fishin!", Nick said.
Aaron just groaned.
"Okay, you're asking for it!", Nick said with a sly grin.
He went over to Aaron's bed and ripped the covers off him.
The sight that expected Nick under the covers nothing in the world could have prepared him for.
Aaron had large bruises covering his little body and only wearing boxers all of 'em were exposed.
His all ready skinny body had become even more tiny.
It was so bad Nick could see his ribs!
"Holy shit, Aaron what have happened to you?", Nick nearly screamed.
"I don't feel good", Aaron whispered
Nick put his hand on Aaron's forhead.
No fever.
Aaron looked at Nick with scared eyes.
"What's wrong with me", Aaron whispered frightened.
"Oh, propably just the flu", Nick said trying to keep Aaron calm.
"I'll go get mum, don't go anywhere!", Nick said.
"Like I'm able to walk out of here", Aaron tried to laugh but had to concentrate on breathing as the pain shot through him.
Nick ran down the stairs faster than he had ever done and practicly flew into the kitchen where his mum, Jane Carter was cooking breakfast.
"Mum, something's really, really wrong with Aaron", Nick said out of breath.
"Nick what are you talking about?", she asked.
"He have lost weight, he's covered in bruises, he looks like hell and feels like hell but he have no fever, so something is really wrong", Nick talked 100 miles a minute.
"How have he gotten the bruises, and I have'nt noticed that he have lost weigth", Nick's dad Bob Carter said, dropping his paper.
"I don't know, but he need to get to a hospital...fast!", Nick said.
Bob and Jane ran upstairs to get Aaron, and Nick got his 17 year old sister BJ, his 12 1/2 year old sister Leslie and Aaron's twin sister Angel.
They all rushed to Tampa Universal Hospital.
Aaron was examened and the doctors found his state rather suspicious and ran a few tests.
An hour later Aaron's doctor, Dr. Parker, returned with the test results.
All the Carter's stood up looking nervously at him when he appeared.
"Mr. & Mrs. Carter, I think it would be best if I could talk to you alone", Dr. Parker said seriously.
"No we don't wanna hide anything for our other children", Bob said.
"This will be very hard for them to hear", Dr. Parker warned.
"They are staying", Jane said.
"Aaron have got Lukemia, It have spread all over his body, his only chanse is chemotherapi and even with chemotherapi he have got a very little chanse of living, only 5/100, I'm so sorry", Dr. Parker said.
Angel and Leslie broke down and cried in eachothers arms, BJ ran out , Bob and Jane clinged to eachother and Nick was paralyzed with shock, the word "Lukemia" repeated over and over in his mind.

Nick's fellow Backstreet Boys, 21 year old AJ McLean, 24 year old Brian Litterell, 26 year old Howie Dorough and 27 year old Kevin Richardson, pilled out of Brian's green Jeep.
Nick had been sendt home from the hospital to rest and called the rest of the guys to tell them about Aaron.
"Look at those babies", Kevin said to his cousin Brian refrering to AJ and Howie who were wrestling playfully.
"I'm worried Kev, its so unlike Nick to call and tell us to get over here NOW and just hang up" Brian said concerned.
"Don't worry cuz, I'm sure it's just one of his sick pranks", Kevin said pattering his cousin reasuring on the back.
The four of them walked up to the door and rang the bell.
Nick was snapped put of his own world bu the door bell.
He slowly got up from the couch and walked slowly to the door and opened.
He stared straight into 4 smiling faces.
"Come on in", he mumbeled and walked back into the livingroom.
Brian, Kevin, AJ and Howie, exchanged worried looks and went after Nick into the livingroom.
"Sit down guys", Nick said.
"Is something wrong", Brian asked.
"Are you comfortable?", Nick asked ignoring Brian's question.
"Yes", Howie answered.
Nick was really worried how the guys would react on the news, cause they looked at Aaron as a little brother and loved him like on.
"I have some really bad news", Nick started.
The guys looked really nervous.
"Aaron have got lukemia, and have only got 5/100 % chanse of living even with chemotherapi", Nick's voice cracked on the last word.
"What.....how.....why?", Brian stammered.
"It was discovered this afternoon", Nick's knees gave in and he fell to the floor crying like a baby.
Brian, AJ, Kevin and Howie gathered around him and did their best to try comfort him and eachother.
"He's just a child, this can't be happeneing" Howie sobbed.
"It is", Nick whispered.
"He'll be okay", Kevin said.
"Yeah, you know Aaron, he'll pull though", AJ said.
And the 5 guys cried together.

The next 6 months Nick spendt at Tampa Universal Hospital.
Nick was by Aaron bedside 24/7.
The Backstreet Boys, canceled their tour and the other boys came to see Aaron every single day.
Nick helped Aaron through chemotherapi and sang to him when he was in pain or puking his guts out.
Everyday Nick saw his lille brother who had been so hyper and full of life fade away and become weaker everyday.

Then one day in early August Dr. Jansen wanted a meeting with the Carter's.
Angels was sitting in BJ's lap, Bob and Jane were holding hands and Nick's arms were wrapped comforting around Leslie.
"I have very bad news I'm afraid", Dr. Jansen sighted.
"The chemotherapi ain't helping, so we wanna stop treating him, Mr.&Mrs Carter, Nick, BJ, Leslie Angel, he's dying, we've done all we can, I'm so sorry"
"What you can't stop!", Jane said.
"No we can't without your premition, but Aaron is suffering from all the pain the chemotherapi bring, and I think that he deserve to die without that extra pain", Dr Jansen said.
"Don't do it, he might live", Jane said.
"No, Mrs. Carter he won't, we have done all we could"
"Don't stop it, he might have a miracle" Jane said angry.
"NO!!", Bob and Leslie said in unison.
"Listen, I just found our that my twin brother, my other half and you son, is dying, my world just colapsed underneath me and you will denie him to die without any pain!!?? The only thing we can do for him now is to let him die in peace" Angel sobbed.
"I agree", BJ said.
"Jane the chemothrapi must stop", Bob said.
"But I don't want my baby to die", Jane sobbed.
"We can't stop him from dying, but we can let him die feeling no pain", Bob said holding her tighter.
"Okay", Jane whispered.
"No more chemotherapi", Bob said looking at Dr. Jansen.
"Good, you just have to sign here", Dr. Jansen said and Bob and Jane signed the paper alowing the hospital to stop treating Aaron with chemotherapi, with shaking hands.
Nick had been staring into space the whole time.
"Are you okay Nick?", Bob asked.
"Of course" Nick smiled.
Bob instantly knew that now Aaron was'nt the Carter's only worry.
Nick was in denial.
Nick had been in denial, once before and that was something the whole Carter family would rather forget about.
When Nick was 12 one of the old ladies who lived in the retirement home that Bob and Jane ran, named Helen died.
Nick and Helen were etremly close and it Nick felt like he had lost a grandmother.
He went into denial and when he snapped out 2 months later he pulled away from the world.
But after 3 months of psycotherapi and joining The Backstreet Boys he got over it.

"Hey, how are you holding up?", Kevin asked as he, Brian, AJ and Howie entered the waiting area at the hospital.
"I'm good", Nick said.
The other began to worry when they realised that Nick was'nt joking.
"I'm really sorry about AC, he's such a great kid", Howie said softly.
"Why is everyone talking like Aaron's gona die?!?!", Nick demanded angry.
"Because he is! you've gotta face that Nicky, I'm just saying this because I love you, we'll help you through this, but we can't help you if you don't face it, cause i can't make you", Brian said concerned.
"NO HE AIN'T GONA DIE!!!!!!", Nick screamed angry and ran out crying.
"I think he's going into the state he was when he first joined the group and that ain't good", AJ said.
"Are not!", Kevin corrected.
"In the name of Jesus Kevin!!!, stop correcting me!!, an 11 year old, that we love like our own little brother is next door DYING, and his brother, our brother is in denial, and all you do is correct the way I talk!!!????", AJ yelled.
"I'm so sorry", Kevin said truly sorry.
"No, I'm sorry, I shoud'nt have yelled at you like that, I guess this has really gotten to all of us", AJ said much more calmly.
"Let's just hope that Nick, snap out of his denial before it's to late", Brian said and the others nodded in agreement.

Nick laid down at the campingbed, next to Aaron, where he had spendt every night the past 6 months.
He fell quickly asleep.

*In Nick's dreams*

"Nicky?", a voice called.
"Yes", Nick answered.
"I need to talk to you Nicky" the voice said.
"Who are you?", Nick asked, he recogniced the voice but could'nt remember who it belonged to.
"It's me, Helen", the voice said.
"Helen? Is it really you?, I've missed you", Nick said.
"I've really missed you too, but that's not why I'm here, I need to talk to you", Helen said.
"Bout what?", Nick asked looking around trying to find Helen.
"You can't see me Nicky"
"Why not?" Nick asked sad.
"I dunno, it's the rules"
"Oh okay", Nick said.
"Now, Nicky you're doing it again", Helen said.
"Doing what?", Nick asked.
"You're denying that Aaron's gona die, just like you denied that I was dead when I died", Helend said
"Is he really gona die?", Nick asked with tears in his eyes.
"Yes Nicky, he is, but he'll be safe up here, I'll take care of him", Helen's soft voice was so comforting.
"But I don't want him to die Helen, he's just a child", Nick sobbed.
"Yes Nicky, he's just a child but the man upstairs need him now, it have always been Aaron's faith to die very young, do you remember when you were younger and he said that he just could'nt picture himself when he was grown up and you said that you could'nt either?, Helen said.
"Yeah, I do"
"That's because it have'nt been Aaron's destany to grow old, get married and have kids", Helen said.
"But it's so unfair Helen, I've lived my life, all my dreames have comed true, why can't you take me?", Nick cried.
"We can't take you Nicky, cause all your dreams haven't comed true , and you still have so much to do before you're done with the world, and Aaron have only had two dreams, that is to be able to have a hit record like his big brother and spend ton's of time with you and both of those dreams have comed true", Helen said.
"So there is'nt anything I can do to prevent him from dying?", Nick asked.
"Not to prevent him from dying, but you can accept the fact that he's dying and some way tell him that is' okay for him to go, cause he's clinging onto life in great pain, beacuse he won't go until he know that you'll be okay".
"He'll go fast and without suffering if I do that?", Nick asked.
"Yes", Helen answered.
"Alright then, I'll do it".
"But Nicky, don't accsept it for Aaron's sake, but for your own, if you don't you'll get eaten up inside", Helen said.
"Okay I'll promise to try", Nick said.
"Goodbye Nickolas, remember that Aaron will be safe here with me and together we'll watch over you", Helen's voice said and dissapeared.
"Bye Helen"

Nick woke up.
The sun was shining on Aaron's face.
"That dreams was not a coincidence", Nick thought.
"Helen was right, I gotta accsept this, not just for Aaron, but for me", hem mumbeled.
"Who are you talking to?", Aaron asked.
Nick looked over to Aaron's bed.
A pair of weak, tired brown eyes, that had lost their sparkle place on a pale face with almost white/blue lips, looked at him.
"Oh, just myself", Nick said.
"Nick, I overheared mum and dad talk last night", Aaron started.
"Yeah?", Nick said taking a bit of an apple.
"I'm gona die, are'nt I?", Aaron asked.
"Uh....well....", Nick stammered.
"Nick please be honest with me, if I'm gona die I wanna know, no one will say anything", Aaron pleaded.
"Yes AC, you're gona die" Nick said with tears in his eyes.
Aaron looked out of the window.
Nick's tears streamed.
The room was silent.
Suddenly after a little while, Aaron turned to Nick.
"I'm not scared ", Aaron whispered
"I know I'll be okay with God",
"Yeah, he'll take care of you", Nick smiled through all the tears.

Nick kissed Aaron goodnight.
When he had made sure that he was asleep, Nick went into the room where BJ, Leslie, Angel, Bob and Jane had spent the past 6 months.
"BJ", Nick whispered, to BJ who was the only one awake.
"Yeah" BJ looked away form her book.
"I'm going out, I don't know when I'll be back", Nick said.
"Okay, G'night Nicky"
"G'night BJ"

Nick knew that the only way he could tell Aaron that it was okay for him to go was through a song.
Nick had gone back to the Carter house to look at some family photos to get inspired for the perfect lyrics.
After 5 hour of work Nick was pleased with the song he had made and went back to the hospital and went to bed next to Aaron's.

The next time Nick opened his eyes he was'nt in a bed next to Aaron, he was alone and in a hospital bed.
"How in the friggin world did I get here?", Nick said out loud.
He looked out of the window it was still nigth.
He jumped out of bed and opened the door.
As he walked out in the hall, Dr. Jansen rushed past him.
"YO!, Dr. Jansen, Why am I moved from Aaron's room?", Nick asked.
"Nick, Aaron asked me if I could move you cause he says that he's going to go tonight and he did'nt want you to be the one to find him", Dr. Jansen said.
"Thanks", Nick said and ran to Aaron's room, prayin that he would'nt be to late.
Nick walked into Aaron's room preparing for the worst, but Nick found Aaron awake staring out the window.
"Oh Ac, I'm so glad I caught you before you left", Nick said.
"I'm gona go Nick, soon very soon" Aaron said before he nearly screamed with pain.
"WHAT?!?, What is it Aaron, shal I get someone?", Nick asked panicking.
"No, Nicky, not anyone or anything can help, the pain is to bad, I can't hang on much longer"
"I know, Ac, I know", Nick sobbed.
"Nick, tell BJ to keep on modeling, and tell Les, that if she don't keep on singing, I'll haunt her for a long time, and tell Angel that her other half will watch over her when she get's her first lead role on Broadway", Aaron started.
"I will Ac", Nick tired to gather himself.
"Tell mom and dad to be brave and that I love them and that I'll watch over them forever"
"Tell the rest of the guys, that I love them and that I'll be the Backstreet Boys' guardian angel and that I'll keep the Backstreet pride alive in heaven", Aarons voice got weaker.
"Don't worry I will", Nick's tears poured.
"And Nick, promise me that you'll sing till the end of time, cause you make so many people happy and you have saved so many lives with you music, and Nicky, promise me that you won't let this stop you world"
"I promise", Nick's tears poured uncontolably.
"I gotta go now Nicky, I can't hold on any more, I love you"
"I love you too, Aaron, More that you'll ever know"
"Sing a song for me Nicky, like you used to do when I was little", Aaron's voice was almost gone.
"Okay, Ac this is a song I wrote for you last night, and I mean every singel word", Nick took a deap breath an started singing.

Fly fly little wing
Fly beyond imagening
The softest cloud the whitest dove
Upon the wind of heaven's love
Past the plantes an the stars
Leave this lonley world of ours
Escape the sorrow and the pain
And fly again

Fly fly precious one
Your endless journey has begun
Take your gentle happiness
Far to beautiful for this
Cross over to the other shore
There is peace forevermore
But hold this mem'ry bitter sweert
Until we meet

Fly fly do not fear
Don't waste a breath
Don't shed a tear
You heart is pure
Your soul is free
Be on your way
Don't wait for me
Above the universe you'll climb
On beyond the hands of time
The moon will rise
The sun will set
But I won't forget

Fly fly little wing
Fly where only angels sing
Fly away the time is right
Go now the time is right
Go now find the light

As Nick sang the last line, Aaron closed his eyes , took one last breath and his heart beat one final time.
"Go Aaron, It's time, God is waiting, I love you but you have to go now, fly Aaron, fly!", as nick said the last word a bright light appeared in the horizon, a sun set.
And throught the bliding light Nick saw a white dove fly past the window.
The dove was headed stright for the sky

Fly

-By Frida