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Gays And Other Gays Today
Hi Every one, This is Derek. Yes I am gay, But how do I know that I am gay or not? Well that is easy. I follow my heart. I am a true and honest being. I am not gay for the attendtion. I am gay because that is who i am. Most of the gay popualtion think of Gays to be something there not to be. But yes some of it is true but i am not apart of it. Most or some i should say just want sex, Well i am not there for the sex i am there for the realtionship, I am there for the conmintment to the other guy.
Let me tell you a little about me first!
I am me and i am me because i like my self. I am not what people make me to be. I am not fake i am something that is hard to most people. I belive in my self and i dont like others get to me by me being gay. I am just a normal happy out going guy just like every one else that is who they are not what they try to pretend to be. IF you know me dont try to fix me to be something of your liking because it wont work. It has taken me years to get to where i am now. You may think i am only 19 but i have the mind of a 28 year old guy. I am manuture to all understandins and just me. I am a person that is loving to all races and religions just until you forces it on me then that is when i say enough. But doesnt mean we cant be friends.
I love the outdoors i dont act much like i am gay but people know me to being gay because i have let people know that about me. But does taht make me a bad person no. It makes me Derek and true and not fake person.
I dont understand why most people that are gay just want me because i look good or because they want sex from me. Well again if you knew me i am not about sex.
I have been searching for a guy that is everything i have ever wanted and i think i might have found him.
I want someone that is real some one that i can turn to when there is no one else to talk too. Some one that is loving and caring and wants to go on outtings. Some one who doesnt fear the public because there gay and holds another hand in public. I want a guy for who they are. I dont care age or what looks are but be yourself. Now there are some looks i do look for and i think every gay guy looks for is are they cute are they fat are they slim ex....... Things like that. Which is normal. I dont want a fat guy because then i know they dont take care of there body. People say well they cant help it well there wrong stop and think do you need fast food all the time? Do you need soda? Do you need Chips? That is what makes you fat right there. I take care of my body and i want someone that can take care of there body because i dont want to babysit my whole life. YOu have a choice on how you want to stand out in public and what path way you take is whatyou get.
But you dont have a choice to be gay or not gay. It just comes with the packeage of being your self. And again you have the choice to tell people about it or to keep it a secert. But why keep it a secert because you dont know how long your going to live or not you could die the next day.
Why do gay men play games with you mess with your head?
What i think it is. Is that they cant really get what they want so they try to hide and cover them slefs up and be something there not. Then when you get to know them better the cover states to fall off and you can see the fakeness again that you once thought was so and so,
My whole pupose of this page isnt all about me which most gay men are about but it is about being your self, but not to the liking of others.
And one day you will find your soul mate just maybe at this time it isnt your time. Time is everything dont rush it dont play it. be the hands on the clock not the clock that just sits there the whole ten years.
I hope that some of this opened some of the peoples eyes that are gay and arent gay. There are good gay guys out thre today. But to find them it is hard. But never judge someone to be something there not because there gay.
The saying "Never Judge A Book By Its Cover" Remember that next time you want to judge someone. And if you are judge be the adult and walk away. Who cares what you look like. Dont get put down by something that has low self a steam. Some one who hurts on purpose or puts down some one has low self a steam. And what are you suspose to do if some one puts you down be the bigger one and walk away why make it bigger then what it has to be.
THINK ABOUT THAT
For now i am going to close/ Every week i plan on updating my web page so you can always come back for more advice or you cant leave a messeage on my email or in my guest book.Any one and Every one is welcome to my webpage no matter what race or religion or what you think about others or me. Your always welcome. Thank you everyone and if there is any thing you would like me to add to my page i will review it and put it on there till next time every one have a good week.
Derek
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