Erica's Poetry
WHO ARE U?
Who are you?
Where did you go?
Are you ever gonna show?
Sometimes I wonder,
Could you just be like thunder?
I have so many questions,
But I will never get any answers?
There’s only one person in this
Whole world that would know.
But for now I guess I will go with the flow.
TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE...
We don’t talk anymore,
I guess everything just hit the floor.
I did everything for you,
All you did was make me blue.
I tried to make it work,
But I guess your love was only a fake.
I always gave, but never wanted to take.
Everything I did was all a mistake.
I can’t believe what you did to me,
I know you don’t want to see.
What I think of you now,
You don’t even want to know.
Everything you did was all a show.
I was stupid to go with the flow.
It’s all going to hit you in the face,
And I hope that it’s going to be mace.
How could it be?
I just don’t see.
Way too much comes
Between you and me.
It’s the same shit,
Different day,
Will it ever go away?
Sometimes I wonder,
How long will this last?
Will it be all too fast?
GOODBYE..
I don’t know what to do,
I feel as though I am falling for you.
Now that you are not here,
I live in such fear.
We suddenly fell apart,
Just as you were let into my heart.
Even though many things got in our way,
I say too myself why couldn’t you stay?
I think of you all the time,
And I feel as though it could be a crime.
You know I love you so,
But I guess I have to let you go.
NOT MEANT TO BE..
It just wasn’t meant to be
Even though it was good between you and me,
No one will ever see.
I like you very much so but we both know that we must let it go.
As time goes by,
I wish for another you and I, but for now it will be all a dream.
Until then I am going to scream silently
On the outside I sometimes sigh.
I look st you, you look at me,
And we both think that no one can see.
I WAIT FOR YOU..
I wait for you to call,
You make me feel so small.
What did I do?
Or is it just you?
Are you still irresponsible?
Can you not just dial to hear my voice,
Call to see if I still exist?
Is it really me that you have missed?
When you call, sometimes I feel like I am talking to a wall.
I know what to do, but obviously you don’t have a clue.
Will there be another you and me?
Someday, somehow I know there will be.
I wish for it day and night, this feeling that won’t go away.
Did I ever do anything wrong?
I guess I will just have to sing that song.
I know the one day you will again come my way,
Until then I will just wish and pray for that special day.
YOU JUST DON'T CARE
You have committed a crime,
To me you are nothing but a little slime.
I can’t believe what you have done to me,
You just don’t see.
It is all of a sudden it’s just nothing but a one stand, what did I do?
You used to just take my hand. I feel as though I shouldn’t’ even talk to you,
you don’t’ even have the slightest clue what I would love to do.
Inside I am hurt and sad, you make me so mad.
Everyone knows that you are proud of what you have done. Just wait until I get you, it is really going to suck and you know what?
I don’t even give a fuck.
ONCE UPON A TIME...
There once was love and now there is hate.
I once thought that there would be fate.
But guess what,
It is now too late.
I tried and tried and all I can say is that you can play this stupid game,
Well you know what hun?
You just go and put this on your wall of fame.
Isn’t this such a shame?
You think you are a winner?
Well news flash you are now nothing but a loser.
You better not go and use her, cus you little games,
they ain’t gonna work, and you ain’t nothing but a little jerk.
FINALLY...
I woke up the other morning, and the sky was bright.
I saw the beautiful light .
You were suddenly there, and just suddenly you could care.
You made my day seem so happy,
After I was just feeling so crappy.
Even though you aren’t always near, I know that you are right here.
You are in that very special place,
in my heart and I know we will never be apart.
MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY...
I love you more than words can say,
I will still love you if you move far away.
But will I love you if you tell me to stay away?
I try not to think of how much I care about you, but every time I see you, the feelings just get stronger.
You don’t know how much I love you, or even how much I care.
Why can’t you see any of this in my stare?
Better yet, you probably don’t even care.
NEVER MEANT TO BE...
You have been after me for so long and now that I am here you feel that it is suddenly wrong.
What happened?
Did I do something?
I led you on, you led me on,
Was it all just in our head?
I have feelings for you now, but you suddenly don’t have any for me.
I guess we were just never meant to be.
I CRY...
I cry for you.
I wish I could have seen you one more time.
I wonder why you are no longer here.
Why did you have to go and do this?
Did you think that it would make everything all better?
How will you ever know how anyone feels for you now?
How will you know if we are okay?
All you have done is made the tears fall from everyone who has ever cared.
Day after day, I try not to show my fear of you being gone.
All of my feelings are behind closed doors.
I feel for you, I long for you, I mourn for you.
How can I tell you how I have fever really felt?
I hid my feelings for you and now I will never be able to show them to you.
Why couldn’t you just stay?
Why did you take your life away?
Now I can’t show you what you meant to me.
I guess I just couldn’t let it be.
CONFUSED..
I don’t know what to do,
All I can do is think of you.
I try to get over it ,
But something just will not let me,
I thought we could once again be
Nothing stops me from thinking of you.
No matter what I do,
Things got in the way,
And I no longer know what to say.
I CAN'T LET IT...
I just met you,
But I can’t let you.
I like to play,
But I don’t like to stay.
I want to be on fire,
But I don’t want to be a liar
I don’t like to talk, but I do like to take a long walk.
I like to cuddle,
But please don’t make a puddle.
I like to have fun, but please don’t run.
I like to make love,
But please have a glove.
SILENT TEARS...
There many silent cries.
There are many watching us from the skies.
We all just wonder who causes the thunder?
Some of us wonder where do the raindrops come from?
Are they tears from an angel?
Are they tears of happiness?
Do we have angels watching us?
Are they in the stars?
Who knows maybe they could be somewhere beyond mars, or even behind bars.
U THINK SO...
Do you think you can play with my head?
Well instead I just want you to stay away from me.
My feelings have been torn by a roses thorn.
My heart has once again been torn apart.
I thought you were the one, but instead,
the same thing has been done to me once again.
You think you can play games with my head?
Think again, I don’t put up with it.
Apparently you don’t know me, I am not as dumb as you think,
I can figure things out real quick.
The only thing I am going to say is that you need to go the fuck away,
and that will make my day.
A NEW WORLD..
In a world so full of peace , wouldn’t that be so nice
people getting along.
No violence or worries, all happiness.
No murders, just quietness.
No hate, just love.
No nightmares, just dreams.
Yes that’s it just hopes and dreams.
Just like this poem, waiting for a dream to come true…
DIFFERENCES...
The ocean is blue.
The ocean is salty.
The ocean is so calm.
The ocean is so strong.
The people are so loud.
The people are so dangerous and strong.
People are so blue.
People are so sweet and mellow.
Moods are so blue
Moods are so sweet.
Moods are so mellow.
Moods are so strong.
What do all these have in common?
They can all effect the earth and everyone in every way.
BEHIND MY EYES...
Behind my eyes is sadness,
I don’t know what to do.
No one knows how I feel.
Behind my eyes is the truth.
Behind my eyes is a young person in need of help.
No one knows how to help.
Behind my eyes is the madness.
No one knows how strong it is.
Behind my eyes is the loneliness.
No one understands it.
No one can see it
No one can hear it
No one can help it.
Behind my eyes is the truth. My best friend, me.
I can help it.
I can hear it.
I can see it.
I can understand it.
KEEP IT IN INSIDE...
People run, people hide.
But they can never keep it all inside.
Feelings can be kept behind closed doors, but can they forever?
Secrets can be kept, the truth can be hidden and kept.
People think pain and suffering can be tucked deep down inside,
But just remember they can never run or hide.
THE PAIN WITHIN ME...
I have a pain within me.
My mother and my father have both left.
I have been left all alone.
I try not to care, but I really do.
It really hurts deep down inside.
You are left with that empty feeling.
Knowing that there is no one there to turn too.
I try to tell myself that i you love something then let it go,
If it comes back to then was meant to be,
If it doesn’t, it never was meant to be there.
But how do you tell yourself that about your own parents?
You can’t, you just can’t let it go.
So forever, no matter what, let it show, how much you love care and adore.
Pain can not hide forever, just like loved ones can’t either.
WHO DO I ADORE?
IN THIS WORLD SO LARGE AND BLUE,
THERE IS ONLY ONE SPECIAL LITTLE BOY I LOVE SO TRUE.
YET A FEW YEARS AGO, I HAD TO LET HIM GO AND
NEVER LET MY FEELINGS SHOW.
OH HOW HE IS SO SPECIAL, YES AS SPECIAL AS A PRINCE, YET I HAVE
WALKED THROUGH THE DAYS WITH SORROW, LIVING WITH NOTHING BUT PAIN,
SUFFERING AND ONLY A DREAM.
YES A DREAM OF SPOILING, FUN, AND LOTS OF HAPPINESS.
A DREAM THAT SOMEDAY HE MAY KNOW JUST HOW MUCH IT HURTS ME TO NOT HIM
LEARN AND GROW.
EACH PASSING DAY HAS TRULY HURT ME MORE AND MORE FOR I JUST CAN’T EVEN LET HIM KNOW THE DEPTH OF MY LOVE, BEHIND MY HEARTS DOOR.
WELL FINALLY, THE DOOR HAS OPENED, AND FROM IT MY FEELINGS POOR. FOR THIS PRINCE IS MY BROTHER WHO, NO MATTER WHAT, FOREVER I WILL ALWAYS LOVE CARE AND ADORE.
MY LITTLE SECRET..
You are my little secret and that is how we should keep it.
No one will ever know, I swear to never let the feelings show.
Behind the doors is our secret passion, no one can see,
Only you and me.
Mistakes have been made but only left in the shade.
Talking, holding hands, and sharing the moments in our lives together,
Taking the chances of being together in life, keeping it between only us
Is how we will keep it.
COLD AND LONELY..
Off in a world so cold.
No one is around, so lonely.
Thoughts running through the mind.
Don’t know what to do all alone.
Wondering where to go
Who to turn too.
Why is there life?
How do you create things?
Why is there love?
How does it hurt?
Life is confusing, pointless sometimes.
Colors crate everything.
Minds cause creations.
Voices cause commotion.
Love creates people.
ANGEL EYES
I look into your eyes and see the happiness
we have created together.
I see your eye and see love.
Thinking of you makes me crazy.
When I think of you, I think of angels.
Thinking of anyone else has never crossed my mind.
You mean the world to me, without you there is no me.
I think of you and see my angel, my angel eyes.
BEST FREIND
I thought you were my best friend?
You are the one that let this end.
I feel like you have taken a piece of me.
I am sorry, but I can not let that be.
You are going to have to let free.
But I know you just don’t see how much it hurts.
Let’s just hope it is only one of those sports.
I can not believe you are going to choose him over me.
TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE...
I only just met you, I don’t even know you.
I wish I could see your face, or hear your voice.
I know you want to be with me but I just can not let it be.
I want to hold you.
I want to feel you.
I want to hear you.
The way I see it, is you are only a dream, the man in my dream.
A mystery is what you will remain.
Someday you will not be a dream, I will see you.
We will hold eachother, and be together.
We will hear each others voices.
Someday, somehow, one way or another.
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